Fires

On the internet, you can find high-resolution pictures of the wildfires in southern California. For those with high bandwidth, this video segment of a helicopter view at 6:00 a.m. this morning, broadcast on a SoCal TV station, is electrifying.

And there's a live video feed from KCBS-TV, on which you can sometimes hear the helicopter pilot laconically talking to his editor or dispatcher. I heard him say, "Yeah, man, I thought this thing was gonna be lying down by now, jeez!... (pause)... Yeah, ha ha! There is no good news!" Corrected link: Go to the KCBS site and click onthe "Live Webcast" link.

Autumnal moment

My friend Jessica Prentice, a food activist as well as a wonderful cook, writes a monthly column that combines a creative approach to cooking and gardening with an activist's awareness of agriculture, water politics and culture:

The push towards industrialization and centralization of the food industries has been touted as our great benefactor -- as if now that we are no longer spending our days canning tomatoes we have so much more time for other, loftier things. But it seems to me that we only have more time for more disconnected and meaningless work, which we have to do in order to survive in this overly commodified culture of ours, where everything has a price and every price is a premium. At least if you spend your day canning tomatoes, you have a real, tangible, and immediate sense of accomplishment -- you have made a concrete step towards providing for your family for the winter. But in our busy workdays, too often it feels like the hurrier we go, the behinder we get.

In other words, I'm not sure that it's working. Are we happier? Are we better off? Are we more secure? Are we safer than we've ever been? I buy canned tomatoes at the grocery store like everybody else, but I am not quite sure whether they represent a great boon or a deep loss, or a little bit of both.

That's from her latest column. She's a terrific writer!

Mmm, doughnuts

Had a great night's sleep. Feeling much better today. Dreamt that Cris and I had come into possession of an aging six-story apartment building on the edge of downtown of a small city. I was gong around meeting the residents.

Now here's a great story:

Naranjo reveals himself to be both ruthless killer and forlorn teenager. He closes his letter with a quotation from Mary Shelley's "Frankenstein" about the inevitability of a tragic destiny, then he follows it with: "P.S. LONG LIVE GLAZED DOUGHNUTS & DREW BARRYMORE."

You have to love a mass murderer who spells "doughnuts" all the way out instead of just writing "donuts."

Woman at the well

An article from an Anglican paper quotes the former head of the Anglican church, who says he knows of a recently-minted English priest who used to be a prostitute. I haven't heard of any threatened schism over her. I guess a reformed prostitute is less threatening than an unapoligetic homosexual.

I spent yesterday evening wrestling with my Gateway laptop -- now four years old -- trying to finish an issue of the church newsletter I produce. The removable CD drive is sometimes recognized by the CPU, sometimes not; I still haven't figured out how to make it see the CD drive. I was trying to get some graphics off a CD. And MS Word did a major barf in the middle of the job and I had to restart and then wait over an hour while the system performed a rigorous "disk check." I finally finished around 1:30 in the morning. Then I redid a couple things when I got up. Finally I dropped it off to be duplicated.

Then, later in the day, I realized I had fogotten to put in a sidebar to someone's article. Well, I'll fix it in the second print run. The first one had to be done for this Sunday.

Huh?

A singer-songwriter named Elliot Smith, whom I'm not young enough or hip enough to have heard of, killed himself yesterday.

Smith was found by his live-in girlfriend Tuesday, Los Angeles County Coroner Records Supervisor Marsha Grigsby told AP Radio. He sustained a single stab wound to the chest that appeared to be self-inflicted, she said. -- AP Story

He stabbed himself in the heart so that his girlfriend would come home and find the body? Talk about hostile! Like I said, I never heard of the guy, but listening to the NPR profile on All Things Considered as they talked incessantly about the guy's music and what a sad but cool guy he was, I was still back at the part about the girlfriend discovering his body. Wonder what their relationship was like.

Fear of man-eater grips Ulster

I don't know what to make of this story from the Belfast Evening Telegraph. It seems to be about an escaped lion or tiger, but they never actually say. They say a "big cat" or "wild cat" is "roaming the countryside" -- no explanation of how it got there, or who is "responsible for releasing" the "wild animal." They don't even say precisely what it is -- unless "big cat" is a more specific term in British.

This vagueness makes you wonder if there really is a "big cat" out there at all or whether instead it's a rural myth like Bigfoot. But the most bizarre image is that of children scampering home from school over the Irish dales fearful of a lion.

Update -- Oh, all right -- a search reveals an earlier story saying it is a puma, or cougar. And it's been on the loose for months! How strange.

Try it like this

I'm going to try a slightly larger font size in my blog. Comments? Email me at toobeaut at yahoo dot com.

(Actually, I would be happy if any readers emailed. me -- especially if I don't know you. Between a hundred and two hundred people read this blog every week, and I don't think I know most of them. So feel free to say hello.)

The millionaire behind the Anglican anti-gay clergy movement

Seems like there's always a Republican millionaire lurking behind so much of the reactionary social movements and events these days. Millionaire Darrell Issa bankrolled the petition-gathering for the California recall. Wayne Huizenga spends his billions from AutoNation, Waste Management, Inc. and Blockbuster Video stores on the Republican Party and religous right causes.

Now the UK newspaper The Guardian has revealed that Orange County millionaire Howard F. Ahmanson Jr. is paying for conservatives in the Episcopal Church to raise a fuss over the denomination's first openly gay bishop.

But that news isn't new, it turns out. A search turns up this article from the 21 Sep 03 Pittsburgh Post-Gazette.

Apolplecticized

My friend D. has a great blog entry today about being tormented by silly naive privileged kids in their 20s who think the world revolves around them and their gated communities. Read it instead of this today.

Take me out

I'm sure most of the people who read this don't follow baseball, but you might have heard of the incident in a crucial game where a fan, trying to catch a foul popup, ruined a play by the home team. Now it seems Hollywood is interested in the plight of the hapless fan.

Meanwhile wags suggested the guy might want to join the witness protection program, and columnist Thomas Boswell of the Washington Post suggested:

Somewhere, Steve Bartman, the 26-year-old Cubs fan who knocked The Foul Fly Ball out of Moises Alou's glove in Game 6, may have sung, "Take me out of the Midwest, take me far from the crowd. Buy me some airfare and fake ID. I'm real sure that I'll never come back."

Only ten more days of baseball

I'll be glad when the World Series is over. I've been enjoying the end of the season and the playoffs a great deal -- too much. All I want to do is watch whatever game is on. And the games have been riveting, stupendous. But I can't get anything else done.

More than anything, I haven't been able for the last six weeks to concentrate on my writing. Although I dropped my bookstore job to give myself more time, I have been wasting that time. And the more time I spend away from writing, the worse I feel -- more depressed, more easily intimidated. I just spent a half hour reading pieces on Salon by Ann Marlowe, whom I had never heard of before. When I googled her, I found she was a prolific freelance writer, and this fact just depressed me. Even though her Salon pieces on sex and romance are vague and poorly supported, and I could see myself doing a better job with the same topics, the operative fact is that she had the ideas and got them published. Which is much more than I can say.

I feel like I need someone to come and hit me upside the head and yell, Write, you dummy! Ignore everything else! Just do your work!

Today's damn new thing

As my grumpiness threatens to become a character trait, like that of Dennis the Menace's neighbor Mr. Wilson, I note with displeasure the advent of a new breed of spam: Comment spam. Comment spam is like email spam, but instead of going into people's email boxes, it goes into the comments areas of people's weblogs. To understand the problem, just look at this thread from the blog Making Light.

By the way, I put in a shift at the l.n.c.b. today, and I had to define the word zeitgeist for someone. Not a twenty-something co-worker, but a woman my age who was purchasing books. She was the third person that day to buy a certain self-help book, I forget what; and I said something about how the topic of the book must be in the zeitgeist. She didn't know what that meant. When I defined it, she said, "Oh, you mean the collective consciousness." Yes, I guess in California we would say that.

Stop that Goddamn noise

In my latest incarnation of middle age, the Blue Angels annoy me tremendously. They visit San Francisco every year for "Fleet Week," an event supposed to evoke San Francisco's former relationship with the Armed Forces. For three days -- one of rehearsal and two of performance -- they perform aerial maneuvers over the center of town, which consequently resembles the capital of a war zone. Such noise!

Last night Cris and I went to the Berkeley Repertory Theater to see The Notebooks of Leonardo Da Vinci. If you were thinking of going, skip it. This is the second show I've seen at the Berkeley Rep -- the first was Homebody/Kabul -- and both shows featured mediocre acting. There wasn't a single standout performer in this show, which was also marred by too-busy direction and an overriding feeling of cuteness and we'll-do-this-because-we-can stage business.

At home the next day, Cris and I riffed on a satire called "The Notebooks of Jerry Bavinsky:" Lousy traffic on the Cross-Bronx Expressway today, as usual. The four things wrong with traffic? One: yer stuck!

Go Bunting

I've just realized that if you just think of everyone as having been a "fringe candidate" in the recall election, the world is a little easier to take today.

So here's today's favorite fringe non-candidate: Sarah D. Bunting, curator of the estimable Tomato Nation website. Her recent essay Yes You Are (a feminist) is something that needs to be said and read.

Yes. You are. You are a feminist. If you believe in, support, look fondly on, hope for, and/or work towards equality of the sexes, you are a feminist. Period.

I don't know how many times my jaw has dropped to the floor when some friend (always female) denies being a feminist. And they always mean that they are not the kind of angry womens-studies tofu-cooking proto-lesbian-feminist they were afraid of in college. Yes, I know you're not one of those, though there certainly isn't anything wrong with being like that, at least as a phase. But don't tell me you don't believe in equality before the law for men and women; don't tell me you don't have a vision of a just society.

Why the recall succeeded, and why I voted for it

If you can stand one more word of political retrospect -- they're spending an hour with Green Party candidate Peter Camejo on a local NPR station right now, so I don't see why I shouldn't join in -- let me say why I voted to recall the duly elected governor of California, the aptly named Gray Davis.

First of all, almost all of those who voted for Davis last year did so holding our noses, as a straight-party Democratic commitment. The same went for Al Gore: We didn't like him, but the alternative was (and is) much, much, much worse. Davis, who is the only man alive who can make Al Gore appear charismatic and animated merely by standing next to him, wasn't to blame for the lousy economy then and he isn't to blame now. But it would be nice to have someone in office who ever had an original idea.

Then this story appeared on Sept. 12: Davis denies parole for woman who killed her abuser. This was the last straw for Cris, and I had to agree with her. Republican coup or no, this guy Davis was simply a waste of space.

So we voted for the recall. And I suspect lots of people had similar reasons.

But why, Cris asked me yesterday, throwing down the newspaper in disgust, did so many people vote for Ar-nold Schwartz-en-eg-ger?

Here's my theory: People nowadays are generally suffering from a fairly high level of anxiety, about everything from the economy to saturated fats; this nervousness translates into hair-trigger tempers, bad moods, and a need to stifle these feelings by overeating, overspending, driving too fast, smoking cigarettes, watching too much television, and generally doing things that give a momentary sense of relief from the anxiety. This is why people buy cheesy snack crackers, watch "Law and Order" for three hours straight, and surf the web for free porn -- they want distraction from their ... well, misery is too strong a word. Say, malaise.

So people are habituated to grabbing for the closest shiny new thing in hopes that it will give them satisfaction. And Arnold, scary and glamorous in a peculiarly southern California way, was just one more shiny thing to grab at.

Looked at this way, surely Cruz Bustamante, though he tried mightily to escape from the shadow of the Democratic machine he's spent his life serving, as has Davis, did not have nearly the appeal of Arnold. That's why the "fringe candidates" got so much attention. In fact, Arnold was a fringe candidate. He was merely a very famous and well-financed one.

There'll always be bean-counters

The news that a well-known Vegas performer was mauled by a tiger on stage has been treated in every conceivable way by both journalists and satirists, but I never thought I'd see a story like this: Illusionists Brace for Fallout: "Two possible repercussions: higher insurance and wary venue owners." Come to think of it, I guess chainsaw jugglers everywhere are taking a long, sober look at monster.com.

And by the way: Two years after Sept. 11, 2001, Vegas casino operators are barely making it

My career in public broadcasting

When I was 20 and halfway through my B.S. degree in Radio-TV-Film from the Univ. of Texas, I wandered into the public TV station in Anchorage, AK and said I wanted to volunteer. The first day, they had me do voice-overs, right on! That night, you could hear my voice during the closing credits of each show, telling what was coming up next. I showed up the next day ready for more; I showed up every day for the next three weeks, but they never gave me a single substantial thing to do after that. I said what about the voice-overs; they hemmed and hawed, but never let me do them again. I don't know why they couldn't have said they just didn't like the way I did them. After three weeks I gave up and went away and spent the rest of the summer working at McDonald's.

This incident, which except for a few stints answering phones during pledge drives, comprises my entire career in public broadcasting, despite the fact that when I was a teenager my career dream was to be an announcer at a Pacifica radio station. This abortive attempt to break into radio, with everyone basically looking the other way when I came into the room, was one of the things that convinced me that other people just know how to make their lives happen, and the rest of us don't.

Now comes Ira Glass, host of the fabulous NPR show This American Life, explaining how his first steps to NPR stardom were to intern at a public radio station. He must have been smarter at it than I was.

More Glass links: A 1998 interview in Mother Jones. A 1999 profile on Salon. A 1999 interview in Horizon magazine. A 2001 interview in the magazine On the Page. A 2003 interview by Teen Ink.

Snapshots of the American mind

Cindy Sherman is one of my heroes. If you missed the short piece (r.r) in the NYT Magazine this Sunday, it's still available online, including a long-lost Untitled Film Stills out-take.

More Sherman: at Masters of Photography; and many links here.

Career changes R us

The recent unplesantness in my adopted home state probably has nothing to do with it -- all those automated campaign calls notwithstanding -- but it looks like Al Gore has decided on a career change. Gore in Talks to Acquire Cable News Channel, says the Boston Globe link from Romenesko). Al Gore the owner of a news network, however small? Then what's he going to do if he runs for office again -- put it in escrow? Unless Gore is giving up politics, it doesn't make sense.

Also from the Globe, another article on the Episcopalians who want to turn back the clock to 1928, negating this summer's confirmation of a gay American bishop. The reactionaries want permission to ally with more conservative dioceses outside the U.S., saying they don't want to be associated with the American church anymore. The mainstream conservatives say unity is more important. Meanwhile, the Roman Catholics are quick to stick their oar in, saying the American church's approval of bishop Robinson threatens moves toward unity. What moves? The Catholic hierarchy has been drifting away from its own people for fifty years now. They should worry about unity in their own denomination.

And finally, who could resist a story about something called a Whizzinator?

Another divisive election

She said current leaders are "middle-class elites" who came of age during the 1960s. "It's a straight-line development from the 1960s 'free love' era," she said of [the] election. "They listen to NPR. They don't watch Fox TV."

No, it's not a comment on the California debacle. It's a conservative Episcopalian characterizing the majority of Episcopalian leaders who approved the election of a gay priest as bishop. All she left out was the cliche about how liberals drive Volvos. I think that's because people in Dallas don't even know what a Volvo is.

But imagine the mentality of someone who disdains NPR over Fox. To the extent she is aware of a difference between the two networks, she actually prefers the one that expresses a clear bias to the one that strives for objectivity. She prefers the one that stresses noisy, antagonistic pundits over the one that stresses admittedly twee humor and culture programs like "My Word." We might guess that she feels more comfortable watching Fox, and uncomfortable listening to NPR. Just what kind of person is that? It's not merely a matter of taste -- as in, one simply prefers listening to Mexican oom-pah music over salsa. It's someone who prefers the demonstrably dumber thing -- and parades that preference as a badge of identity. Pathetic.

Faulty recall

To do today: Call up friends and pretend to be one of the canned automatic calls now being received by Californians to ask them to vote no on the recall. So far I've received calls from Bill Clinton, two congresswomen, and the wife of Gov. Davis. I'm holding out for a call from Nao Bustamante, but in the meantime, be sure to call your friends, especially those who don't live in California, and speaking in the appropriate accent, give their answering machines a political message. Because everyone is screening their calls til Wednesday.

Hello, this is Bill Clinton. I'm calling to ask you to vote no on the recall tomorrow, Tuesday, October 7th. After impeaching me for fooling around with that woman -- Miss Lewinsky -- you'd think the Republicans would want nothing to do with some other charismatic son of a bitch who can't keep his hands off the chicks. But no, they are shameless. Put a stop to this charade, and vote no on the recall.

Hello, this is... Al Gore. And I'm calling to ask you to vote no on the recall in California. And after you vote no, you just don't vote for governor. You save that vote for 2004. You put that vote in a lockbox.

Hello, this is Jimmy Carter. After watching the Braves get their butts kicked by the Cubs yesterday, my heart is broken. I feel just about as bad as I did in 1980 when I lost to Reagan. So don't break an old man's heart again. Even though in Georgia we wouldn't let someone like Gray Davis run a junior high school, he's got to be better than that idiot Schwartzenegger. So vote no on the recall, and I just might get it up to watch the Falcons play this Sunday.

Hi, this is Martin Sheen. I'm not the president, but I play one on TV. And I'm even more liberal than my character, who's still in office long after my friends the Clintons have left. If California elects Arnold Schwartzenegger -- Jesus, that takes a long time to type out -- the governor, I just may get the idea that I could go ahead and run for president for real. Hell, Reagan got elected twice, and the second time he was so far gone mentally that he couldn't remember to put his pants on over his ass instead of on his head. Anyway, I'm calling to urge you to vote no on the recall. Fun's fun, but even I know the difference between fantasy and reality.

Nocturne

Errands, TV baseball -- Giants lost playoffs series, boo hoo -- then a little house cleaning. By then I just didn't feel like doing any work -- any writing, that is. I went to see Casa de los Babys. I thought it was kind of boring, frankly, though it was nice to see all those great actresses together. Marcia Gay Harden was fun as the uptight bitch, though I couldn't stop thinking "Wow, that's Marcia Gay Harden doing a great job acting like a Midwestern bitch." And I've always liked Mary Steenburgen, ever since her Oscar-winning role in Melvin and Howard.

I emerged from the Embarcadero theater and saw, between the buildings of Embarcadero Center, the pastel shades of sunset over the bay. So I walked down there, and out over the bay on the newly completed pedestrian walkway on the side of Pier 1. Only a couple of fishermen were out there, discussing baseball. On the softly lit bay, a tugboat pushed a barge under the Bay Bridge and past the pier, while out toward Treasure Island, another tug towed a barge in the opposite direction. A ferry departed from the Ferry Building next door, heading off to Marin County. There was a haze keeping the opposite shore of the bay indistinct; not fog exactly, more like the haze that's left over when the fog has blown in.

At least temporarily, the film got me out of the funk I've been in for the past week. Maybe now that the Giants have been eliminated, I can start focusing on something else besides baseball. I really do spend too much time watching baseball on television and thinking about the Giants. But I'm not crushed by their elimination; the last two games were great games, and the Marlins are a good team. Ugh, nothing's more boring than someone blogging about sports.

So what am I in a funk about? It really started a few weeks ago when I had a party at my place. A minimal number of people came to the fête, not quite enough to make it a really good party -- though I was, of course, grateful to those who did come, especially N and N, two ex-girlfriends I hadn't seen in a long time. But since then I've been feeling sort of socially isolated, and I've gotten very little writing done, as well. It's just a funk, pure and simple. Awfully boring. A film generally gets me out of it. But it might take a better film than Casa de los Babys. After thinking about it, I realized what is wrong with that film. John Sayles was basically attempting to make an Almodovar film. It has the requisite elements: an ensemble of well-known female actresses in their 40s, an exotic location, a woman-friendly theme (children, adoption and mothering), even a slender, darkly browed nun. But Sayles will never make anything close to an Almodovar film, because: 1. he is American, and 2. he is not queer. Nice try though.

Just how sorry are you, Arnold?

Concerning today's stop-the-presses admission by Arnold S. that he had sexually harassed women on his film sets over the years, my friend Ellen writes:

Ooooh, looks like Arnold is taking it very seriously. Apologizing to women! If he is sincere, he should ask Maria to wear a burrito harness and set up a little press event.

Yes, indeed. Ellen is, of course, referring to my blog entry for yesterday and the famous 1992 performance art piece by Cruz Bustamante's sister Nao.

It really doesn't get any better than this, does it? Don't you know that stand-up artists and comedy writers all over the world are hoping and praying that Schw. becomes governor? We could be in store for years of this.

He's got my vote

I never knew, until the arch-conservative Weekly Standard revealed it today, that California Lt. Governor Cruz Bustamante is the brother of San Francisco performance artist Nao Bustamante. No doubt the rightist rag intended to shock and entertain readers with its description, copied from Nao's website, of her unforgettable performance in 1992 to celebrate 500 years of Columbus discovering America. In the show, she donned an Indian headdress and a dildo harness, through which she inserted a huge burrito and invited male members of the audience to kneel in front of her and take a big bite and then apoligize for 500 years of oppressing native Americans. It was one of the funniest and greatest things I've ever seen.

In the event that this news could possibly dissuade people from voting against Cruz -- a candidate as colorless and boring as Nao is fabulous -- I'm switching candidates and voting for him.

Blogger of the month

I'm not even going to identify this blogger, whom I found randomly using the "next blog" button. I'm just going to quote a recent post in its entirety, in all its teenage angst:

yesterday was my parrtttyyy lol today i woke up n my voice hrut ahah so much talkin yesterday but oh well... GAB FEST =)) all girls n stuff, pretty big group of girls ahah if some guy walked by he'd get horny.. LOL ahahs hmm roxie came first n then holly n then these guys walked by n roxie yelled UGLY n they heard.. ahahs so bad.. tsk tsk but oh well funny lol i was ROFL.. for rela.. hmm n then everyone else came in groups n then ppl did their own thing.. video games, computer, look at my photo albums. .weird ehs? ahahahs jen n felicia n amy n andrea took up so much of my webcam room but oh wells hahaha i got a digicam from my parents =) lol won't list my parents 'cause im not spoiled n im too lazy LOL ahha but i swear holly's transforming me into a woMAN ahhas hrmm... helen gave me a preschool pic of us lol SO CRAZY hahas i lookalikea boy in a way ahahs but oh well.. hmm cake was GOOD lisa simpson looks funny.. she's like a pun now hahaha stupid cake ppl i had a feeling they'd make her greenish or too yellow hahas FAKE GOLD looking... hmm we watched the eye, so scary ahah me n amy n jo were covering our eyes in the scary part but the music and the noises scared me too so at night it freaked me out so badly... hmm we were like playing truth or dare n TRYING to play spin the bottleahahs im DERRIK NG big time lol hmm gossiped a bit bout stupid bitches like maria and nancy and lau's at windy.. LOL so much food too, im gonna have like colslaw, potato salad, pizza, chicken, pop, almond pudding, and cake for like a week ahahs hmm spicy chicken debate lol its not spicy.. =O lol anyways.. i think taht's it lol can't really think of anyuthing n my fingers hurt, i finished my socials vocab and science, but i still have a socials book report, math studying and english report... which i'll do tonight or tomorrow... sigh i wanna watch rugby tmrw but what's the point wilson's not gonna be there n i got so much stupid math... so oh well =) do de do.. im out for now.. blah so tired... slept until 11 this morning AHHA

Truly bye bye red truck

I know I announced a couple days ago that I sold my truck, but this evening I delivered it to the buyer, whose check I deposited on Monday. I drove down to Mountain View -- a Silicon Valley town which I last visited in the late 90s when I interviewed for a contractor gig at Netscape, a gig I didn't get -- this was before Netscape was purchased by AOL, as far as I remember. (So what? I don't know.) The very first time I was in Mountain View was before the phrase Silicon Valley was invented. It was about 1980 or 81, and I was seeing a woman named Noelle who lived down there.

Anyway, to get back to the subject -- I drove the truck down there and gave it to the guy, and he then dropped me off at the train station. I rode the train to Millbrae, an even more meaningless suburban town, and then got on the new BART line that opened this year, and rode to within a half mile of my house. It was nice to be able to use public transit so easily, especially since I've been paying for that line for the last twenty years -- I ought to be able to put it to use once in a while.

This came after a little freakout yesterday when I tried to find a little pile of nuts and bolts I needed to re-attach part of the truck prior to delivering it. I never found the nuts and bolts and Cris ended up just taking care of it this morning at a body shop so that I could deliver the truck tonight. Thus ends a short chapter of our household story as seen through the vehicles we've owned. We didn't use that truck much, but it did take me on a few crucial trips through driving rainstorms quite comfortably.

Not quite everyman

George Plimpton, a terrific writer who managed to transcend his privileged background and become a sort of everyman figure, died the other day. Now the Lyons Press is reissuing his sports books, including the brilliant Paper Lion and The Bogey Man, the only interesting book ever written about golf. Here's an interesting interview with Plimpton in the Columbia Journal of Lit. Crit.

In other news:

Living in sin, committing adultery and practising black magic will be punished with heavy jail sentences under Indonesia's draft new criminal code, sections of which have become public this week.

The tough provisions in the code, intended to replace much of the criminal law left by Indonesia's former Dutch colonisers, include jail terms of up to 12 years for those who engage in casual sex. Strippers risk two years' jail, and men who renege on promises to marry face four years' jail, a sentence that could be increased to five years if the woman is pregnant.

according to tomorrow's Sydney Morning Herald.

Regrets, I've had a few

You know how you feel about certain of your ex-lovers: you recall them, and your passion about them, with a mixture of fondness and embarrassment. I've never met Anne Lamott -- author of a superb book about writing, Bird by Bird, as well as a humorous book about child-raising, a humorous book about her spirituality, and several novels few people have read -- but I have the same sort of relationship with her (or, rather, to her public persona) as I do with some ex-girlfriends. After a period of infatuation and intimacy (in this case through reading), I have a sudden, inexplicable feeling of being fed up, during which(in this case) I stopped reading her Salon columns. Finally I have come to regard her with a mixture of happiness and regret.

Her latest piece in Salon captures all the things that please and frustrate me. It expresses admirable sentiments I agree with -- in this case, the proposition that it might be better for the people of California to express love rather than hatred toward politicians we don't agree with -- but is way too much about her own interior life, refers to Jesus by name too many times, and goes on too long.

All the Jesus references used to be funny, for the same reasons Garrison Keillor's audience always laughs when he says the word "Lutherans": it's funny in an unexpected context. But if you go to that well too often, the joke becomes expected. Now every time Keillor says "Lutherans" and the audience guffaws, I cringe. And I'm starting to get that way about Lamott, too. Not that I think she should stop writing about her spiritual life and the unexpected places it takes her. But I'd like her to stop throwing around "Jesus" so much by name, and I'd like her to stop using the personal pronouns quite as much, too.

Also, her hairdo irritates me. But most people's hairdos do. Even when there's no hair at all. Case in point: I was on Castro St. last night, the evening after the Folsom St. Fair, an annual event for the "leather community." And shaved heads being common among those folks, there were plenty of post-festivants still in their street fair drag, spilling out of bars. Now, I like the shaved look; I've done it myself for periods, and I will in the future. But when there's a whole group of people with any particular look all together, what seemed fancy when you got dressed for the day immediately looks tired.

But I'm just being cranky. Despite having sold the truck yesterday, thus getting some cash to pay off a credit card and also reducing our monthly insurance bill, we're still running short. Yesterday we decided to cancel the daily newspaper. But it's not so bad that we have to cancel the cable TV. It'll be a dark day when we have to cancel cable.

Bye bye red truck

A year ago, when I was still employed by a software company at a ridiculously high salary, I decided it was time to replace the Toyota MR2 we've been driving for several years. And since I'd always wanted to get a light pickup ever since my days in the early 80s as a delivery truck driver, I determined to replace the sports car, named Martina, with a truck. We found a great deal on a pretty red 2002 Ford Ranger and paid cash. Three weeks later I was laid off.

I really like the truck. The only problem is that it's a lot harder to park a pickup truck, even a "compact" one, in San Francisco than Martina (which we wisely held onto). So we rarely used the truck, though I did drive it down to the desert and back last November. Since then we've mostly used it to help people move.

As a sign of how temporary I must have viewed this relationship, I never named the truck. It's just the red truck. Well, we're getting kind of broke, despite my measly hourly wages, and finally determined to sell the truck. it's going this weekend, by hook or crook.

Down and out

The city has survived another heat wave, worse than the last -- the temperature reportedly hit 97. This is unheard of, but it certainly explains why it was impossible Sunday evening to get cool, and the way the house just seemed to get warmer and warmer instead of cooler. To top it off, Sunday is garbage night, and we put our cans on the front sidewalk, next to the gated-off breezeway. Our bedroom window faces the breezeway, and of course we had to keep the window open because of the heat. So that meant listening to bums going through the recycling for hours on end, looking for cans and bottles. Of course each one has to look, because, ya know, he might be the first to get there.

But I shouldn't complain. I could be one of those bums. Although I'm not sure I'd ever fall so low as to go through people's recycling for cans.

You know what -- those people work hard. They push their loaded-up stolen shopping carts for miles across the city, looking for cans and bottles that are worth pennies to them. At the end of six or eight hours' work, maybe they've got twenty or thirty bucks worth. What they do with the twenty bucks is, of course, their business. But it's a shame that energy can't be put to good use -- like actually cleaning all the garbage from the streets, not just the recyclable garbage.

Last night the fog returned, in a tentative way; today was sunny again, but vastly cooler. Tonight the fog is coming in for real. I find myself hoping that's the last of the summer's heat, but this year has been so screwy that I'm afraid it's not.

Why we fight

Tipped off by Gawker -- a reliable source of gossip -- in the sense that "reliable" means that it comes out every weekday and has something interesting, not in the sense that it can be relied upon to always be true -- tipped me to this NY Daily News story about James Gandolfini getting smashed at a Manhattan nightclub. It mentions a girlfriend, so I googled her and found this astonishing photo.

I ask you. Where else but in Hollywood can a fat ugly bastard like that get some smashing babe one-third his weight, with a smile wider than the Golden Gate? Well, okay, I guess a Russian mobster could also do as well. And maybe a Columbian drug lord.

Gee, I wonder why those characterizations come to mind.

Blog I do

Some stories friends will be interested in, for various reasons (they are varied friends):

LA Times, 17 Sep 03: Modesto Man Accused in Archbishop's Death -- A human rights group sues former Salvadoran air force officer in the 1980 killing of Romero.

NY Daily News, 17 Sep 03: Not Under His Thumb -- Mick Jagger explains the hell of being Mick Jagger: everyone who sleeps with him has too-high expectations.

The Guardian (U.K.), 17 Sep 03: Snubbed unknown sweeps giants off shortlist -- The Booker Prize judges have ignored the uncrowned king of English letters [that would be Martin Amis] and two past winners in favour of an unpublished writer.

And finally, Vandals rampaged through my alma mater in suburban Houston, further solidifying its reputation as a mini-Gomorrah.

High concept

The Chronicle printed one of those Fall Movie Preview features that are, along with the typical end-of-year looks back at the news, one of the most tedious and regrettable parts of the newspaper. But one of the descriptions caught my eye:

Oct. 10: "Good Boy!" -- Tells the tale of a 12-year-old who discovers that his new puppy can talk. Not only that: He's an alien from the Dog Star sent to investigate why canines strayed from their original mission and instead became man's best friend.

That second sentence is EXACTLY the premise of a musical I invented, for a musical theater class I took in the mid-1980s, entitled "God Dog." Intended to be a satire of "Cats," and never fully developed (it was just a class project), the show's only difference from the above summary was that we played a whole crew of astro-dogs, not just one, bent on this recovery mission. And it was a musical. We came to earth to find satified mutts, one of whom sang a show-stopper blues tune entitled "I'm a Bitch, and I Like It."

I'm not the type to sue, though. Imagine the embarrassment of claiming you had dreamed up the idea for a stupid kids' movie -- half a stupid kids' movie.

That were they thinking

Last night on the local PBS station, a two-hour Frontline episode, Faith and Doubt at Ground Zero, aired. I watched it between pitches of the baseball game, and parts of it were so riveting that I missed several important plays. In addition to hitting most of the points you'd expect -- escapees from the WTC who saw God's hand in their survival, grieving relatives who wanted to know where God's hand was for their loved ones, and the now-predictable montages of smoking ruins set to the strains of Barber's Adagio for Strings -- the show was most interesting when it examined hard questions. To its credit, the show didn't shrink from putting a conservative rabbi on the air who said that you can't credibly claim God saved you from the pit when so many others are mourning people whom God didn't deign to save. And most interestingly of all, the show lingered on the point that is, to me, the most fascinating of all: The choice faced by people on the upper floors to jump to certain death or perish in the smoke and fires. And that image -- which apparently the filmmakers couldn't get the rights to show -- of two people holding hands while they fell to their deaths, a picture that proved that people had not been somehow blown out of the building but were jumping intentionally.

It's that decision to jump from 100 stories up that fascinates me. As a firefighter said in the film by the Naudet brothers titled simply 9/11, the firefighters arriving on the scene were stunned by the fact that things "must be so bad up there that people would rather jump from a hundred stories up" than face the fire and smoke. Of course, no one who was privy to those decisions survived, so we'll never know what was going through their minds, how they could weigh the factors. Talk about fight or flight.

The show was weakened by the filmmakers feeling obliged to make the end of the show somehow uplifting. That's when they brought in Barber and the montage; but that's when they also talked about the two people jumping hand in hand. Somehow the music was supposed to transform the ghastly images and discussion into an uplifting conclusion -- that the will to reach out to one another transcended the evil of the day. I didn't buy it, partly because Barber is so overplayed that I think it dilutes whatever (usually sentimental) point is being made, and partly because I don't think there's much comfort in the gesture. Yes, there's something in it, in one person literally standing on the abyss saying to another "Take my hand and we'll go together." But then they died horribly -- nothing pretty about it. They weren't listening to Barber on the way down; if their brains had the bandwidth to process any sounds, it was their own screams.

Nevertheless, if I put myself in their place -- I've always been terrified of burning to death. If it's up to me, I'm definitely jumping.

Another note for clear writing

It's always important to write clearly and concisely, as these jokers now realize:

South Bend Tribune, 11 Sep 03

Men botch robbery after arguing;
Demanding note confuses clerk

MISHAWAKA -- Two would-be robbers who tried to hit up [sic -- "hit up"?] a 7-Eleven store early Tuesday left the West Douglas Road store empty handed after feuding with each other when a clerk couldn't understand the intent of a threatening note.

A clerk at the store told Mishawaka police that the two males entered the store at 910 W. Douglas Road at about 4:30 a.m., selected several items and carried them to the checkout counter.

She said the two men lingered in the store for several minutes before deciding what to buy.

After approaching the counter, one of the men, a 5-foot-5 thinly built white man with dark short hair, said he needed to retrieve money from his car and left the store. The second man, also white, 5-foot-7, with a medium build, short blond hair and a mustache, followed the first man outside.

The clerk said the two men spent about five minutes talking outside before re-entering the store.

When the two approached the counter, the shorter man had a checkbook in his hand and asked the clerk for a pen, police reports said.

The man then allegedly handed the clerk his checkbook and written on a carbon-copy of a check were the words: "put it in the bag." Below the words was another phrase that the clerk vaguely remembered as a threat that the two will come after her.

The clerk, who was apparently confused by the men's actions and didn't comprehend the "put it in the bag" command, replied to the shorter man, "What is this?"

The man responded that he didn't know because his buddy wrote the note.

The clerk told police the men began to argue over the note and left the store. The clerk heard the taller man angrily tell his companion that he was not getting "into the car."

The taller man apparently changed his mind and both left in the vehicle, heading west on Douglas Road in a dark-colored Suzuki, possibly a Sidekick.

Mishawaka police said they believe the two robbers have struck before, on Sept. 6. Police said descriptions of the men, similar food items left on the counter, and an identical note handed to a clerk at a 7-Eleven store at 1302 Milburn Blvd. last Saturday resemble the latest botched robbery attempt.

Police said in the Sept. 6 holdup, the two men successfully ordered the clerk to put money into a bag before leaving. But one of the men allegedly left behind a Mountain Dew, and a can of the soda was also left at the counter during the attempted robbery on West Douglas road.

There are several things I love about that story. First, the 5'7" man is described as "the taller man" (emphasis mine). How often does that happen? Second, the note was the same as one used in an earlier 7-Eleven holdup, but that one was successful -- which leads you to wonder, was the first note clearer, or was the first clerk just smarter -- or dumber, depending on how you look at it. Third, they had to borrow a pen to write their stickup note with. Considering how helpful the clerk must have been, it's a wonder he didn't try to help them write the note. And finally, these guys apparently start eating and drinking during their heist -- then leave the grub behind.

I can just see this happening at the l.n.c.b. "Sure, here's a pen -- and while you're writing that note, would you like to sign up for our email newsletter?"

Last night at the l.n.c.b. I freaked out my fellow employees when I revealed my age. It happened when a middle-aged woman -- that is, about my age -- asked a clerk next to me whether Aqualung or Thick as a Brick would be more appropriate for her 16-year-old. This led to me mentioning that the first time I heard Thick as a Brick I was 16 myself, and it was playing at the graduation party for an older student; we spent much of the party just grokking the album's faux-newspaper LP cover and insert and wondering what it had to do with the record. "You were 16 when this album came out??" my co-worker asked. "How old are you?" When I said I was 47, another clerk blurted out, "That's how old my mother is!"

He's cute, too. I'll bet his mother's really hot.

Tell me about your mother

I still haven't really gotten the whole weblog thing. I just saw this funny piece (funny probably only to those familiar with San Francisco politics) and thought, hey, I'll send email to all my friends with the URL. Then I realized: Dummy, that's what the weblog is for. You're supposed to blog such things (which I got from Metafilter, by the way) and your friends -- if they're the least bit interested in what you have to say, much less some unrelated crap you found on the web -- can read it there. Otherwise you're just cluttering up their inbox.

I drove to Pleasant-not and back today, just because Cris had to go. It's my day off and we drove out there together, listening to the CD of mostly 60s psychedelia I'd burned using iTunes. (Conclusion: Much as I like it, Positively 4th St. doesn't belong with songs like Almost Cut My Hair and Dear Prudence.)

Back in the city, I went to Aardvark Books, my favorite excuse to hang around on Church St., and picked up a collection of Dori Seda's comix work. I'd heard a lot about it but never had the chance to see much of it.

'The most corporate kiss ever'

In its entirety, here is a short opinion piece from The Guardian. (By the way, all the British, Australian and Indian papers referred to the incident using the word "snog.")

The most corporate kiss ever

Marina Hyde
Wednesday September 3, 2003
The Guardian

It was not the evident desperation of most parties in the Madonna/ Britney Spears/Christina Aguilera snog at last week's MTV video awards that made it so hilariously unerotic. It is simply that the kiss - still enjoying repeated run-outs on magazine covers and celebrity shows this week - must go down as the most corporate pucker-up of all time.

With the music industry ever so slightly less laissez-faire than it used to be, one can only imagine the armies of business-schooled marketing experts who number-crunched long into the night to calculate the precise financial gain this momentary lip merger would bring to each involved party.

"Yes, partial insertion of the tongue will play well on balance," some sharp suit calculated. "What we lose in Iowa we'll just hoover up in the bi-coastal markets. Groping's strictly out across the board, though - gentle head support only or you can press 87,000 less albums each and forget Oprah promotion."

That the perfectly marvellous Christina should never have got involved with such a desperate stunt is a fact too obvious even to discuss. As for the motives of her dancing partners... well, the brief dynastic coupling seemed formulated to help Britney lurch into a more racy adult market while allowing Madonna to allege she still has the power to shock. Although once you've done it with a bleeding Jesus (on an altar and surrounded by burning crosses) the leery games mistress thing's arguably a bit of a climbdown. Still, if it plays well in the heartland...

Breaking point

I reached my breaking point yesterday at the l.n.c.b.

But first: the news. This piece of analysis from the Baltimore Sun suggests the recent incident in Mississippi with the Ten Commandments monument in the state supreme court building was not just a bit of clownish Southern Man behavior but a possible spark for a resurgence of the Christian Right.

So -- about the l.n.c.b. My decision to stop working there wasn't based on any one incident, although the fact that another employee was mugged on the way home from work, not four days after R. was attacked inside the store by an ex-boyfriend, didn't help. And it wasn't a crazy customer or the prospect of putting away 100 heavy, slick magazines that were scattered about the place. It was simple exhaustion that made me decide, about fifteen minutes into the start of my shift yesterday, that I just couldn't do it anymore.

I made it to the end of the shift -- in fact, I felt a little better in the last couple of hours than the first couple of hours -- but was so tired when I got home. This morning my eyes were killing me, another sign of exhuastion and of the dehydration that comes from standing in that store for six or eight hours at a time. So at noon I called up my friend the boss and told her I had to stop. I'll work out the end of next week, and I left open the possibility of working some shifts there in the future.

Today I came home from my other job and crawled right into bed. In fact, I did that on Tuesday, too, the day after a shift. Another sign that the whole situation was just unworkable.

And yet a large percentage of the American population has two jobs -- not counting, of course, those parents (almost all of them women) who work all day long and then come home and have the primary childcare, cooking and housekeeping responsibility in their homes. I'd like to say I have a newfound respect for such people, but I'm still too tired to think about it.

Coincidentally, there was a minor earthquake tonight and the l.n.c.b. was at the epicenter. Not strong enough to cause any damage, I assume. A 3.9 is no big deal.

Run away!

After the Giants game, I watched... maybe... seven seconds of the new meta-realty show Joe Schmoe. That was all I could stand. I am 47 years old and this is beyond me. True, two years ago I watched and enjoyed Big Brother, but that was when they had almost real people on the show; this summer's version of BB is filled with fit 21-year-old eye candy -- who needs it! Schmoe is essentially a triple-layered satire of shows like BB. You have the contestants, the big house, the one-way mirrors, the syping cameras and microphones. But in this case, the whole thing is actually a send-up of reality shows; the "contestants" are all actors playing parts in a reality show, as if to satirize it. But wait -- satire is not the point. The point is the degredation of the only cast member who is not in on the gag -- he thinks it really is a reality show. And the television audience is in on the joke from the beginning.

And so fucking what? It's not like a reality show has any reality, much less realism, in the first place -- we're not exactly talking The Truman Show here. You know what I think? I think they tried to make a funny satire of reality shows, and they realized, shit, this is just not funny, it's impossible to satire this crap because it never took a live breath in the first place. But they had all this footage. So they realized, hey, we can salvage this by making it about degredation. Let's reshoot a few scenes with Clyde, making him look like the patsy, and then we'll shoot a bunch of interviews giving the audience an "inside view" of the whole thing. Then maybe we'll have something.

I'm making it sound much more interesting than it really is. But I ask you: after an atrocity like Dog Eat Dog, just what is there left of reality tv to satirize?

And why the hell am I writing about it in the first place? Simply to express my increasing astonishment and alienation with American culture. I know, I'm not exactly going out on a limb here by criticizing reality tv. And yet millions of dollars are expended in its production and broadcast. Well, I gues it's cheaper than a war. If you're a Hollywood executive, the worst you can do is make bad television. Just think what you can do if you're president.

Oh dear

Satire is dead, Garry Trudeau wrote many years ago. But that doesn't keep stories like this from popping up: a version of the New Testament being marketed to teenage girls with a cover resembling a teen fashion magazine, including lines like "How Get Along with Your Mom" and "Beauty Secrets You've Never Ever Heard of Before!"

In addition to the biblical text — written in the modern English of the New Century Version — Revolve also features teen 'zine staples such as quizzes, Top 10 lists, and Q&A's. They focus, however, on religious topics like, "Are you dating a godly guy?" and inner-beauty advice. There are also tips on prayer, volunteerism, and calendars with entries, such as "Pray for a person of influence: Today is Michael Jordan's birthday" on Feb. 17.

In other non-news: It is a lovely cool, sunny day, and I have the day off from one of my jobs (while still being obliged to go to the l.n.c.b. in the evening). I went to morning prayer this morning and was the only one there, but it was beautiful and quiet and my solo voice echoed in the sunny church.

People have asked me, What happened with that incident in the l.n.c.b. where an employee was injured? I don't know yet. When I left the place Saturday evening, the poor girl was lying on the couch in the breakroom being ministered to by a supervisor while an Emeryville cop stood around casually. Undoubtedly he took a report from her which included the name and address of the perp, an old boyfriend. And I spoke briefly to the boss after church on Sunday; she said she had calls in to corporate to find out what assistance they could offer. I'll go back tonight and perhaps find out something.

Bad day

End of a long day at the l.n.c.b.. My usual Saturday shift -- 11 a.m. to 7 p.m. -- felt longer and more tiring than usual. I spent most of the time at the registers ("at reg"), as usual, dealing with the usual Saturday waves of shoppers. One moment there would be no one in line; three minutes later there would be seven people in line, waiting to check out. We have new cash registers at half the stations, and these are both quieter and quicker, so everyone gravitates to them. When I came over and filled in on reg. no. 5, one of the old ones, during a break, the grating sound of the printer hitting the register tape and the motion (now uncessary on the new registers) of actually tearing the receipt off for the customer already seemed strange.

All day long things felt a little off. My friend the boss took 25 minutes to work through a complicated return-recharge transaction with a woman who had bought scads of blank journals for her fifth-grade students; I did a few returns, but luckily they were all easy ones. The strangest one was when a slender woman wanted to return a book about vegetable juice she had bought at a branch of the l.n.c.b. in upstate New York, and it was sticky, as if it actually had vegetable juice on it. Oh, and the funny thing that happened was when a young couple came in with these two books: a do-it-yourself divorce guide, and a bartender's guide. Nyuck nyuck.

Nevertheless, all day I had a foreboding that something would happen, a robbery or something. And I felt worn down and tired. My last two hours I was scheduled on reshelving, a task I welcomed since the store has been in such lousy shape for the last few weeks. While people have been on vacations, the place has never gotten completely put together at the end of the day, a fact I find depressing -- it makes the whole experience of working there somewhat Sisyphean. I put away, in several sections, books that had been left about the store yesterday and today: novels, business books, history books, books that go in the "General Metaphysics" section (where all the weird-ass New Age stuff goes, that is, if it doesn't go in the "Magic" or "Speculation" sections).

Fifteen minutes before the end of my shift, I got a page and went to spell the guy in the music dept. while he took a break. I hung out there, standing in front of the fan, answering the phone, which no one else seemed to be answering. Finally at 7:02 the guy who belonged in music came back and said, "Wow, you're really removed from all the excitement back here." I said yeah I guess so. "No, did you hear what happened?" he asked. "R_____ was working in the cafe when an old boyfriend came in and came around the counter and threw hot coffee in her face. They're calling the ambulance right now. You really didn't hear anything?"

Yes, he said, yes

Here's an irresistible story from today's "Minor League Notebook" column in the New York Times:

A KEROUAC BOBBLEHEAD

Jon Goode, the director of media relations for the Class A Lowell Spinners, a Boston Red Sox [baseball] farm team, wanted to honor the author Jack Kerouac, who was born in Lowell, Mass., but he was not sure about the way to do it.

He called representatives of James Irsay, the owner of the Baltimore Colts, who purchased the original manuscript of Kerouac's most famous book, On the Road, in 2001, to see about bringing the manuscript to the ballpark. He was told that the manuscript was too expensive to travel, but he was also told that Hillary Holladay, a member of the English department at the University of Massachusetts-Lowell, had gone to them with a similar idea.

So Goode called Holladay, and they met to try to figure out a way to honor Kerouac. Of course, Goode, being involved with baseball promotions, had an immediate idea: Jack Kerouac bobblehead dolls.

"She looked at me like I had about 10 heads," he said of Holladay's reaction. "But I explained to her that not everybody gets a bobblehead doll and that it's a big honor, and she decided to go for it."

Jack Kerouac Night, which was held Aug. 22, was a huge success. Goode said that peoplle lined up as early as 11:30 p.m. -- the gates opened at 5:30 p.m. -- and that the crowd had a distinctly literary flavor.

Arise ye prisoners of want

I love Fridays -- my day off. I do errands, read, see films, and always end the day by spending two hours on the treadmill in the basement watching the Giants on TV. (I hasten to say that, without the ballgame, it's a deadly dull two hours. I don't like exercise and I've never been able to understand people who do it for the sake of it. I'm doing it to keep from getting a fucking stroke.) Even when the Giants lose, like tonight, it's fun. I'm doing 7 miles at a pop now. I don't run much; mostly I walk. That's why it takes two hours.

My big leisure this afternoon was a trip out to the Richmond to see an obscure 1997 Japanese film, Bounce Ko Gals (a.k.a. Leaving) at the 4-Star. (The film festival page alleging it is a 2002 film is wrong.) Cute little Japanese girls, sex industry storyline: my kind of picture. I hasten to add that the entire movie transpires without any of the characters in the movie actually performing a sex act, on screen or off. Mostly they just make appointments with losers and then rob them. There's a sentimental yakuza who used to be a student radical; he owns a bar with The Internationale on the karaoke system -- that's the kind of gag they have in the film.

It was chilly and foggy out there on Clement St., and sunny and cool in north Bernal Heights when I got back. A lovely holiday all around.

Other creatures of the night

My two favorite customers from my Monday night shift at the l.n.c.b.:

The woman who brought the following books to the register: a book about loneliness; a book about how to survive a breakup; a book about shyness; and some other self-help book I can't remember. She was cute, too. It's amazing how much you can infer (or wrongly assume) about someone based on their purchases -- which is why we should never let the feds get access to library records.

And then there was the man who wanted books on "the culture and geography of Mississippi." The l.n.c.b. doesn't have a geography section, and we're not very good on searches by subject, but I looked up "Mississippi" on the computer, and all I found were books whose titles indicated they were either about slavery or the Civil Rights movement -- titles like Sons of Mississippi: A Story of Race and Its Legacy or Mississippi Harmony: Memoirs of a Freedom Fighter . No, I don't want that, he said -- I want something on the culture. Well, what the hell is the culture of Mississippi besides slavery and the Civil Rights movement? I really didn't know what to tell him, and just led him to the U.S. History section and left him there. At least an hour later he came up to the register, just as the store was closing, with a state map and a book -- I don't remember what it was, unfortunately, but it seemed vaguely about the culture of the South.

Of course, I could have told him to go read the novels of Eudora Welty and William Faulkner. But I have a confession to make. I haven't read either author.

Last week I pissed off a customer without even meaning to. These students from Cal park themselves in the l.n.c.b.'s cafe for hours to study -- I suppose because they live in shared apartments and have noplace else to go. At the end of the day last Wednesday we were closing and every customer had left but this one guy who was scribbling away, showing no sign of moving. I was in the cafe picking up the piles of books and magazines that people leave in the cafe all day long without buying; I may have been a little irritated at that habit of the customers when I walked by him and said "Time to pack it in, pal." He muttered something, packed up his things and left. I later heard that he got so pissed off that he called the manager on the phone an hour later and tore her a new asshole. I felt bad that she had to catch shit for something I'd done. But talk about over-reacting.

The famous and near-famous

I just failed to get into a screening of the new movie Tekonolust. My friend Bob Ostertag knows the filmmaker and invited several friends to the premiere this evening. Outside the theater he introduced us to actress Karen Black. Unfotunately the theater sold out before we got to the front of the line, which was bad for us but good for the film, which was completed two years ago and is still seeking a wide release.

So I came home and I'm watching the ballgame on TV. It's all good.

I met Bob twelve years ago when the Kronos Quartet commissioned and performed a piece called All the Rage. The live performance involved Kronos live on stage with a hundred dancers, me among them -- it was the last dance performance I ever did.

And speaking of my friends' accomplishments, here's a piece on extreme programming by my friend Martha Baer, former Wired managing editor and now a freelancer.

And I met both Bob and Martha through Sara Miles, a great editor, journalist and activist. Those are three highly talented people.

FBI informant inflated facts in effort to publish book

I loved this story from my old Houston suburban neighborhood, about some pathetic dweeb -- described as an "FBI operative," which means what, exactly? Was he an FBI agent, or just an informant? -- inflated reports in order to attract a book contract as well as wreak revenge on a handsome astronaut. My favorite quote:

"He said his wife was tired of supporting him. He didn't have any income. If I couldn't get a book sale quick or a movie contract, he was going to have to go back to work and he wanted to write for a living."

How well I know that feeling.

Can't stomach Demo hacks. Must... vote... otherwise

A friend wrote:

Dear Friends, I'd like to hear your thoughts on some upcoming election issues. I'm planning to vote "No on recall; yes on Bustamante" in the California gubernatorial recall election on Oct 7. Anyone see any reason to do otherwise?

Well, yes, I replied to him. The fact that Bustamante, like Gray Davis, is a totally unappealling MEDIOCRE PARTY HACK.

He responded:

Frustration shared, Mark, but what are you actually going to do?

And I answered: http://www.georgyforgov.com. Now, someone has pointed out: But she's selling thongs on her merchandise page. My point exactly. To my knowledge there is no other candidate selling thongs, unless... I guess I'd better check Angelyne. Nope, no thongs for sale. How about Larry Flynt? Yes, he sells thongs too! It just goes to show there are some candidates thinking outside the box.

That will be the extent of my political commentary for the next six weeks.

In other news, an Ohio grad student gave me a shout-out in her blog; she found me, she said in a follow-up email, by googling Frighten the Horses. Welcome Rita!

Couldn't resist

A high point last night at the l.n.c.b. was when a customer brought this anthology to the counter. I couldn't resist exclaiming "I've got a story in this!" Caught a little off guard, all she could say was, "Really?" in a mild tone, as if that were more information than she wanted from the counter boy who was selling her 500 pages of dirty stories.

I wasn't asleep!

With my new schedule, it's harder to update my blog. Of course I can always do so from work, but then only the blog page is updated, and not my home page -- I can only do that by manually editing the page and FTPing it to the server. And there's no FTP software on the computer at work, yet. But now it's my day off, and I report the following.

Last night I had a sort of kung fu/thriller movie dream. I woke up in the middle of the night and tried to write it down in the dark. When I looked this morning at the notebook, I saw that I had written over a previsouly written page -- rendering both dreams illegible. The only thing I remember clearly is that the dream was set in some kind of company or organization that had at least two levels of indirection for customers, in order to mislead them about the company's real mission (which had something to do with superhero crime fighting or something). The first level was a computer game which the customers were supposed to spend months or years figuring out. But for the really smart customers who finally got to the last level in the game, there was virtual reality sex. And yet virtual reality sex was not the main business of the company, only something else to mislead the customers and keep them from discovering its real activities. Nevertheless, the people who actually worked at the company frequently took advantage of the virtual reality sex themselves, perhaps while waiting around for someone to launch them on some life-saving mission.

At the l.n.c.b., I continue to encounter customers who are amusing or dismaying, or sometimes both. But I think the saddest thing is the "reshelves" shelf. When a customer returns a book, it gets put on the "reshelf" shelf behind the counter and, all things being equal, put back on the shelves at the end of the day. When I see things on that shelf that I've personally sold, it makes me sad sometimes. Like on Monday someone bought a book off the classics shelf, Histories by Herodotus. On Wednesday I saw it had already been returned.

Then there are the customers who seem to think we are a used bookstore. A guy came in Wednesday with four books; no receipt, and they didn't have the characteristic l.n.c.b. bar code sticker on the back cover. Clearly they were books that had been sitting on his shelves for some time, never read. We took three of them. The fourth, I was going to give the guy a refund for as well, but a manager discovered the fact that it was an outdated edition. The transaction took forever because the manager had to look them all up on the system after I had also done so. Then the manager took it upon himself to scold me for doing several things wrong during the whole affair, including letting the guy stand and wait while I took care of other customers during the time the manager was looking up his books. Personally I feel the other customers shouldn't have to wait while some lame-off cashes in some books that probably were never bought at the l.n.c.b.. But according to the manager, we're all just supposed to stand there.

So far on my day off I've accomplished getting a haircut. Later on I'll go to the bank. I might go see a film. Nothing stupendous. We can't afford anything stupendous anyway.

But you've got to admit, they had a hell of a logo

Yesterday on some NPR show -- "Marketplace," or "Fresh Air" -- I heard a story that was, partially at least, about Germany's attempts to redefine its image, and make it seem like more of a cool, happening place. "Unfortunately," said a German marketing consultant who has been hired to take on this task, "we are still suffering from the negative branding we accomplished from the years 1933 to 1945."

Negative branding. Yes, I guess they managed to convince everyone that Germans were rapacious, fanatical, power-mad, and willing to employ any means to the end of world domination. But they had style. Doesn't that count?

Monday's favorite customers at the l.n.c.b.: The late-fiftyish Jewish woman who smacked two books on the counter for return -- "A book about Siberia and a self-help book! Well, I'm not going to Siberia and I don't need any more mental health, no matter what they think!" -- and the young black woman who called asking for a book called Pimpnosis. Actually she didn't know the exact title, only that it started with "pimp" and it was pimp-no-something. I found it on the system and went to the shelves to locate it. Sure enough, there was an expensive hardback with nice arty black-and-white pictures of street prostitutes and mostly-undressed women in bars; the text was a novel about, yes, pimps. From an admiring standpoint. As far as I could tell, the book was less about the women and more about the narcissim of the self-styled pimps, an occupation the book took entirely seriously. It was neither ironic not an exposé.

I went back to the phone and told the girl I couldn't find it on the shelves. "But I need that book so bad!" she cried. "I need to send it to someone in prison in Southern California!" In the background was a crying baby. I'd heard about all I needed to hear. "Sorry, maybe I can look for it later," I said. "Well, can you call me back if you find it?" she insisted. She gave me a phone number and told me her name was Mahogany.

The fact is, prisons won't give hardback books to inmates. The materials can too easily be made into shanks. But that's not the real reason I pretended we didn't have the book. In truth, I was just too disgusted.